I started this post last month and couldn’t figure out how to finish it. Until now.
As ninjababy ages out of early intervention, I’m seeing more and more signs of his Autism and I’m struggling with guilt. Did I do something wrong while pregnant? Did I not breastfeed long enough?
He’s had 3 major meltdowns in 2 days that involved him hurting me. Part of me wants to break down and give up, but I can’t. If I do he loses his voice and number one advocate.
Things are going a bit better since I started this post, but there is something new we are struggling with. Potty training.
I know it will happen when he’s ready, and that it is something that I can’t force. The thing is, it’s one of those milestones that most kids have met by now and it makes me feel like I’m not doing a good enough job.
I guess it’s one of those things you figure out as you go along.